diary entry

Time to make another cup of coffee.
Intimacy is not created in a moment...would that it were!
Intimacy and depth go hand-in-hand.
Not necessarily with other humans like myself.
My most intimate, deep relationships are with my cats right now.
In Tokyo, I had a few intimate relationships...with my landlady, my boss and two friends who were also my cat-sitters. And, what my lonely hunger could not see back in those days, was - that was enough. So, I'm back to square one. Exploring. Being cautious. I've had a few encounters that did not bring about intimacy. To me, intimacy is the ability to relate to another as a whole person. If that does not exist, then what shows us for me are shallow encounters. This is not a negative judgment. It is the same as looking at a potato and seeing a potato; looking at a watermelon and not seeing a potato. On one level, we are all connected to the intimacy of life. Now I'm at square two.